Pros? (Can we find the silver lining in this...let us try...shall we?)
- I missed driving in some seriously bad snow storms and getting stuck on Route 84.
- My 2005 car remains just a smidge under 100k miles.
- Less wear and tear on my work wardrobe.
- I did some killer organizing of personal file system.
- The cats are way happy to have me around.
- I'm cooking and baking more.
Cons (this is the gray cloud area)
- I've lost a critical part of me as a woman who has always worked and provided for her family.
- I miss the socialization that comes from the day-to-day working and feel out of the loop on what's going on in my old life.
- I miss my friends.
- I'm cooking and baking more and that wardrobe that has less wear and tear on it may not be as "fitting" as it should...ahem.
- Financially, it's a big suck hole for our family...the debt is still there, and unemployment, while appreciated, does not cut it.
- Trying to find work after 55 is not so easy at any age.
- My son keeps threatening to walk me into the woods and leave me (the bastard!) which is akin to what some societies did or still do with their older members.
Along with all the above, I am just plain embarassed to talk about being "let go" because I always prided myself on being a good and valued employee. Now I'm one of those women who are home...it's not a good thing for me, okay?
I have posted my resume on more websites than I can remember my ID and PW for, and the most "promising" contact I got was from a guy who called me at home on a Friday night, and when I searched through Google on the company (he was insulted I had never heard of them), there was a lot of information to read through that led me to believe that it was a pyramid type of sales job...he did ask me if I liked to help people.
It's pretty discouraging to look for jobs in my area because the salary grid is so low. When a real job pays less per week than unemployment, what does that tell you.
Mostly, though, I miss ME.
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