Long Time No Hear, Eh?

I was walking out of work the other day.  Wait, what??!!  Did I just say work???  Yup, I have been working for over a month, and I really like it. 

Anyway, I was walking out of work the other day, and I was thinking about how good I was feeling and how awful I had been feeling three years ago.  Three years ago, my wonderful little sister-in-law was very sick; we were just days from finding out about her stage four cancer that would take her in just two months.  But, I was also in one of the worse career decisions of my life.  Just a couple of months earlier, I had met with two people in an organization that I thought I wanted to be part of, and I was now there...in hell.

I have always thought that you should listen to your gut when it lets you know something is "off" about someone or something.  I felt this the day I was invited to a staff meeting in my new department and watched my new manager laser in on the others at the table.  I wondered if that was particular to that day, or did she always do that...pick off victims.  The second time was when I was moving into my new desk -- in front of hers -- and she was having a mini meltdown.  I should have heeded my "gut" and run away back to my former organization. 

Anyway, the next couple of months were awful on so many levels, particularly with losing my wonderful sister-in-law.  At work, I was the closest target to the childish tantrums of my boss, and I found myself conflicted in my feelings because she was so talented and yet so awful.  She was very good about my taking time to leave so I could help with the caregiving of my sister-in-law; I would have left anyway...really.

I am just so glad to be away from that toxic feeling and being in a place where I need to watch my back.  I am grateful to be close to home and to be working with people who are dedicated to helping others dealing with the devastating effects of dementia.  Quirky?  Sure, but then who isn't, right?